How many times have you looked back and realized that you were the one who stood between you and what you wanted? That you were the reason for that relationship not to work, for that project not to succeed, for that book not to be published, for that scholarship not to be granted. Sometimes you look back and say, well that’s okay. You realize that you had a subconscious desire for things not to work because you knew they were not right for you. You feel like you ended up in a better place. And sometimes, sometimes you look back in pain. If only I was less afraid, if only I could lift my head, tell my truth, be me. If only I acted and didn’t cave in, I would not need to carry this pain today.

Aquarius is the sign of hopes and dreams. When the sun is in Aquarius, it is a good time to contemplate on what you really want out of life. What would you expect of the world if you really trusted it? Sometimes we feel things we do not want to feel. We want things we do not want to want. How much do you trust your heart? How much do you trust the world? Are you constantly at war with yourself about your desires? If you are a healthy person, that usually make healthy choices, then learn to trust your heart. If your heart wants something, surrender to it. Peruse it.

On January 24, Saturn will enter to a conjunction position with the sun. I know Saturn conjuncts Sun aspect pretty well. I live with it every day of my life.

Saturn conjuncts sun can enhance the Aquarian detachment. You want to be practical; you want to get ahead with your work, especially with the strong Capricorn we have this week. The downside of this aspect is that it can make you feel limited, it can wake up limitation in you. Saturn conjuncts Sun can make you feel like you don’t get what you want out of life. Under this influence you must observe and learn in which way do you contribute to your failure. Are you the one who stand between you and your dreams? This is the time to see that, to identify that. You might not believe that you can actually succeed. You might be afraid of failure, disappointment, or rejection. You might be afraid of success. What is your reason?

This week chose one unfulfilled aspiration to work with. Try to see your part in the unfulfillment of this dream. Can you still fulfill this dream? What can you do differently to make it work? Do you believe it can actually happen? Are you afraid to fail? Are you afraid to succeed? Are you afraid of rejection? Lay down your fears, what hold you back. It will already be a huge progress to make this dream come true.